pass through my own unresponsiveness - pass through my own fearful muting - pass through the thousand darknesses of death-bringing speech - pass through the guilt & despair

wintering over in the snow-bound house forever windowless

end of winter - a time of great psychic distress,turmoil and breakdown
a dark and isolated presence struck dumb by terror & anxiety
cradling a fear of renewed persecution and reprisal

lacerating human memory into
delusion & prophecy
love & loathing

this shuttle between dark & light or the epileptic halts allow
no possible evasion of the sense of menace, despair & anguish
while weighing one betrayal against another for filaments of meaning

so badly mutilated

rekindling the distrust of . . .
make a burnt offering of . . .

madness & pain

unutterable silence unforgiveable exile
silence, exile and cunning